I cried today....

and its been a while since I've cried. I was thinking about that the other day...and I'm sure I've had some good reasons for a good cry (especially when I'm trying to wrangle two screaming babies by myself)...but I haven't cried in probably two months.

But I cried today.

Today was the day (one year ago) that my babies were concieved. Not just Carter and Caelyn...but 9 beautiful embabies were concieved on this day. When we were doing IVF I just prayed and prayed that only the children I could keep would be concieved. I prayed that only 4 embryos would be made...and that two embabies would be able to be freezed so that I could have all of them.

I know that there are many differing views on this topic...but I believe that those were my children....that they ARE my children....

And I cried today.

I cried because I can see these two beautiful children before me...and know there were 7 others. That I'll never kiss their chubby cheeks or see their faces light up in a smile. I'm not sure how it goes in heaven...if they'll still be a bunch of cells...or if they'll be adult people that I can talk to...I'm not sure how all that works. So I guess I will see them someday...

But I still cried for them today.

Thank you God for my two little miracles...and the seven others that are with You now...I never thought I'd ever be a mommy...thank You for giving me these two precious gifts...I will treasure them always.

Caelyn's 4 month photo shoot...

Man...I love this little girl. :o)

Marvelous Monday....

Love hearing this girl talk...even if it is a little...dramatic. :o)

I'm still here!!

I figured since today marks exactly 1 year since I started my Lupron and Asprin...yes...the start of my IVF cycle...I'd better post!!!!!!!!! I was sooooooo nervous to do that shot...so anxious about what the future might hold....

I had no idea it'd look like this.....

...and I couldn't be happier. I am enjoying every minute of being a mother to these two precious little people. They are getting more and more fun by the minute!

They are growing so fast...I can't wait to see what they are weighing these days...last month they were both 11lbs 3oz...we go at the end of this month to see how much more they've grown! I have a feeling Carter is going to weigh more than Caelyn this time!

Little Caelyn is such a doll....she is so laid back and patient...just the other day her brother was crying his eyes out (he wanted to be held of course!) and she turned to him, clasped her hands together and started cooing at him. It was the cutest thing ever. He didn't stop crying...but I think in the future she'll be my little peacemaker. Such a cutie.

We are getting so many smiles from these little guys...definitely makes it so much fun!! I love interacting with them!!!

Carter is our fiesty boy/love bug...he wants to be held...pretty much all the time...which his daddy doesn't mind too much...

We had a great Fourth of July...they stayed awake nearly all day...and I seriously think they saw (and maybe even enjoyed) the fireworks...we were far enough away so that they weren't loud...but the kids were definitely looking in their direction the whole time. It was so fun to share that with them!!!

The Fourth of July was also the first night they SLEPT THROUGH THE NIGHT!!!!!!!! We got 8 1/2 hours of sleep that night...9 hours the next...and we've been going pretty strong since then except for one night Caelyn woke up at 3am to eat.....yeah momma's lovin' this!!! :o)

The kids were even in the local paper for the Fourth of July parade...yeah...we're a little famous around here now. :o)

Yesterday was mommy and daddy's five year anniversary...so my IL's came over to watch the kiddos while we had our FIRST NIGHT OUT!!!!!!!!

You know I love my kids.

But I'd be lyin' if I said I wasn't a LITTLE excited!! :o)

We had a blast...a nice four course meal...then off to see Eclipse...perfect date night.

Then I came home to two sleeping babies...and you know I just HAD to wake them up for a snuggle (bad momma!!)...cause I really did miss them!! Thankfully they went right back down! :o)

So that's our life in a nutshell...and it couldn't be sweeter.

What a difference a year makes.

Wordless Wednesday....

I love Bows!!!

If you love them too check out my friend's etsy site...she has lots of cute ones!!

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Happy Memorial Day!